Lately, I have been really...really...stressed out.
My 2 year old will not stop whining, being sassy, and screaming at the top of her lungs, which scares my 4 month old, so she is unhappy. Then, my 4 year old yells at the 2 year old for bugging everyone, and before I know it, I have lost all patience and almost all of my mind. Add to this, superbly cold temps, so we hardly ever get out of the house, money stress, marriage stress, trying to study for a big personal training exam I have coming up, working my other 3 jobs, and the complexity of this Whole30 challenge, and I have been nearly at my wit's end.
I am sure you understand. Stress happens.
The thing is - I usually look forward to my relaxing time at the end of the day, some chocolate, and maybe even a glass of wine here and there. Well, according to the strict Whole30, I am not allowed any snacking, any desserts or treats, and no alcohol, and this puts a big damper on my "relaxation time."
I hate to admit it, but lately, I haven't been following the Whole30's strict guidelines on snacking. I have been grabbing my bag of cashews and bottle of Kombucha at night, sitting my butt down on the couch, and snacking. I know, I know, shame on me.
But, of course, then I rationalize it by saying, "Who really cares? It is my Whole30 journey. I can do what I want." That is all fine and good, except I am a perfectionist, and I wanted to follow this to the tee. I haven't. And I am not.
I have decided that I am doing my best, and that is all I can ask of myself at this point in my life. I plan on doing the Whole30 again - even better next time. In the meantime, if eating cashews at night is the worst thing in my diet, I am not going to feel that guilty. :-)